Assalamua'laikum wbt & Good Day,
Two months had passed for 2018 and HOLA! This is my first entry for this year :)
Being me who tend to get the seamless ideas to write at odd hours and whenever I am on tight schedule; here I go! Writing & sitting in aeroplane are basically my comfort moments.
Listening to Ku Percaya Ada Cinta by Siti Nurhaliza at this moment really bring me into self introspection.
"Ku percaya tidak sia-sia aku diuji
Demi cinta tersembunyi hikmahnya pasti
Pandang-pandang alam ini
Sambil pandang difikiri
Mana bumbung langit tinggi
Mana lantai bumi
Tiap satu yang terjadi
Tidak mungkin tersendiri
Cuba cari jawapannya andai meragui"
|One of the mosques in Muslim neighborhood, Phnom Penh|
Being on downtime due to few factors are not easy. In spite of good supports received from many people surround me, it is all in the end depends on me either to continuously walk forward or remain in my small circle of negativity. After having few breaks since last December until the most recent one in February, I do realize that in the end, everything depends on us to accept or keep denying; as everything were already being destined by Allah since I were not exist yet in this world.
My recent trip to both Phnom Penh & Siem Reap, Cambodia did opened my eyes that the willingness to forgive is one of the most crucial factors that will set us free. The way they recover post Pol Pot's administration back in 1970s impressed me; not to mention the big heart of the family members of those being killed during that oppression. THEY CHOOSE TO MOVE ON & FORGIVE. Still, I find these qualities are not easy to have and needs a lot of mujahadah. :(
I am quite worry as I have one more year remaining to reach the age of three series. In spite of the ultimate factor whereby the time remaining to live in this world become shorter, I should anticipate that more challenges are on its way. And whenever there is challenge, I should learn to discover the opportunity that lies behind. Again, huge positive energy require for this. HAHA
|Taman Safari Bogor, Indonesia|
Having good circle of acquaintances is one of the most important elements in our life as a normal human. The reason why I use the word "normal human" is because I believe that only 10% of people in this world is exceptionally strong and positive in spite of any hurdles in their life and taking a very short time to recover. Having this kind of people around us is not only helpful in elevating us from the deep hurt, but also showing us that the grass is greener on the other side which in the end speed up the recovery process.
I truly agreed that emotional pain hurts more than physical pain and that is where I noticed the people who suffered with cancer but having good and strong support system (family, financial, friends, etc) can go through the pain easily and manage to have longer lifetime from the one anticipated by the doctors. And knowing this, I start to realize that having a good one always started by being a good one. This is one of the most important lessons which I believe it is well known by many but realize by only few.
In the end, in order to set ourselves free, the ability to forgive & forget are essential. Noted that the things happened to us could be because the past mistakes that we have committed; and it indirectly taught us that karma is always work without we even realize.
Have a nice day. Wassalam~